Noah did NOT cry all the way there, which was something I was very thankful for. We got unpacked and settled with only some minor grumpiness and irritability on our part. Noah did great the first evening and the next Sat. afternoon. Then came Sat night and the rest of the weekend... He did NOT want to go to nursery (very UNLIKE him) and would just cry and cry and sign "owie". We tried what we could and just couldn't get him to do it. So Frank and I took turns listening to the speaker while the other watched Noah.
But there is just a sadness that comes over my heart sometimes. I can't get my 7 year old boy to go into NURSERY!!! My hope was that going to camp would become easier and easier as he got older, and I did not feel as though that were happening.
I am someone who has learned that I should NEVER rely on people. I feel that is the way that we can really become confused and disillusioned on the journey of Christianity. By thinking people are supposed to be exactly like Jesus. I know I'M not, why should I expect people to come to my rescue and be perfect? People let us down, A LOT, even those we love most. Don't get me wrong, God has used people OFTEN in my life to lift me up. It's just that I know I can sometimes lean a little too heavily on that. I have found myself feeling sad that someone has not reached out to me, but then I remind myself to make Jesus the One I bring my troubles to. I have to admit, there are times I have felt that He has let me down as well... but there, I know I am wrong. He NEVER lets me down. He always has me right where He wants me.
The last night of camp we were having a snack with Noah after we enjoyed a hay ride. Holly was off playing with a new found friend. One of the camp staff came up to Frank and I and just kind of told us she noticed we were struggling and would there be anything they could do to help our time at Camp Forest Springs? I can't tell you what that meant to me!!! To actually have someone see, and reach out with TRUE SINCERITY... and offer help! Even if they couldn't help, it wouldn't matter. It was EXACTLY what I needed at that moment and God sent it to me. She gave me what I needed most... HOPE.
I don't know what the future holds.... I do know Who holds my future. I don't know WHERE I would be without Him!!!